Today is Pentecost. May the Holy Spirit to be with you always and forever.

Come, Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful

and kindle in them the fire of your love.

O breathe on me, O breath of God,
fill me with life anew that I may love
the things You love and do what you would do.

O breathe on me, O breath of God,
until my heart is pure;
until my will is one with Yours, to do and to endure.

O breathe on me, O breath of God,
my will to Yours incline,
until this selfish part of me glows with Your fire divine.

O breathe on me, O breath of God,
so I shall never die,
but live with You the perfect life for all eternity.

May it be an evening star shines down upon you.
May it be when darkness falls, your heart will be true . . .

This is the 3rd month now. We are so missing you and thinking about you every day. You just graduated and preparing for your new journey to the college, you definitely need something, such as a new computer, school supply, clothes, or anything a college student needs, etc. We saw Costco has MacBook demo and wondering should we get one for you. The spec is very good and I believe it is also good for you to make music and artworks. Please let me know if you need it or anything. It is definitely not trying to force you anything, but just wanted to share our love to you and reduce your burdens. Hopefully, this will not cause you any negative thought on us.

Honestly, I have more thought, but I don't know you like to hear or not .... such as, I also wish to assist you on your driver license, find your dream car, pay your college tuition, prepare college moving, or even travel with you to share your load, challenges and hear your stories with the respect of your independent decision. No matter what happened, you are always our beloved son and our love to you will not change any, but our attitudes and the way to be with you are dramatically improved through those learning from our psychologist and therapist.

I am seating in the church now and hearing those voices from prayers. It sounded like they are praying for you and me together. Wish you have a place to stay and food to eat definitely including a place of God and God's food and drink. May God bless you and the Holy Spirit to be with you always and forever. Be strong, be positive and be holy. Please open a channel to talk to us or just simply come home.

TC Aphorisms

• [25] 口說好話，心想好意，身行好事，腳走好路。
• Speak kind words, think good thoughts, do good deeds and walk the right path.
• [27] 有知足心，才懂感恩；有感恩，才會善解；有善解，才能凡事包容。
• Being content helps us, to be appreciative. Having gratitude helps us, to see things, in their positive light. Being this way, we will become a more, tolerant and understanding person.
• [36] 感恩可以打開我們的心結，並且啟發我們的悲心。
• Having gratitude can help us dissolve, our inner afflictions, and waken our compassion.
• [75] 增一分感恩心，即減一分猜疑心。
• With more gratitude, we will have, fewer misgivings.
• [87] 地上種了菜，就不易長草；心中有善，就不易生惡。
• Weeds do not easily grow, in a field, planted with vegetables. Evil does not easily arise, in a heart, filled with goodness.
• [93] 智慧是從生活、人事的磨練而得來。
• It is through learning, from the trials, of everyday life, and human affairs, that wisdom is attained.

True Heart

This is the 9th week since you left. We understand that it is not easy for you, and definitely not easy for us too. If you still feel lost, confused, or don’t know what to do, wish you can think about your original goals and the purpose of this journey. It all gets down to one point, your decision. I think you understand this point if you are thinking the best, you will expect the positive results, and if you are thinking the worst, you will not see good outcomes. 

Please ask God to lead you and the Holy Spirit to guide you. Please discuss with a mentor, teacher, counselor, therapist, big brother/sister, priest, or even your parents. They may give you some advice or guidance as long as they talk to you through their heart without any purpose. I wish you know what I am exactly saying here. As I said, if you need a counselor, therapist, or psychologist, I can provide a list for you and everything is confidential. They are really professional, helpful, and really work.

Please turn on your heart’s light, and discover your true self, open a channel to talk to people and parents who really love you. You will hear your inner voices and see your true heart. May it be an evening star shines down upon you and when darkness falls, your heart will be true . . .

Mencius said "When Heaven is about to place a great responsibility on a great man,
孟子曰：「天將降大任於斯人也，
it always first frustrates his spirit and will,
必先苦其心志，
exhausts his muscles and bones,
勞其筋骨，
exposes him to starvation and poverty,
餓其體膚，空乏其身，
harasses him by troubles and setbacks so as to stimulate his spirit,
行拂亂其所為，
toughen his nature and enhance his abilities."
所以動心忍性，增益其所不能。」

These songs always make me cry . . .

May it be an evening star shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls, your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road. Oh! How far you are from home
Mornië utúlië, believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië, a promise lives within you now
May it be the shadow's call will fly away
May it be your journey on to light the day
When the night is overcome, you may rise to find the sun
Mornië utúlië, believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië, a promise lives within you now

In the quiet misty morning
When the moon has gone to bed,
When the sparrows stop their singing
And the sky is clear and red,
When the summer's ceased its gleaming
When the corn is past its prime,
When adventure's lost its meaning
I'll be homeward bound in time
Bind me not to the pasture
Chain me not to the plow
Set me free to find my calling
And I'll return to you somehow
If you find it's me you're missing
If you're hoping I'll return,
To your thoughts I'll soon be listening,
And in the road I'll stop and turn
Then the wind will set me racing
As my journey nears its end
And the path I'll be retracing
When I'm homeward bound again

Graduation Commencement

Today is your HS Graduation Commencement. As we mentioned earlier, we will not join it, since we didn’t get your invitation and it is your big day, we wish you will comfortably and fully enjoy your graduation with your friends and classes without disturbing from us, but we still want to let you know that we definitely want to be there physically, and we all watched live streaming on YouTube when it was opened. We were so happy to see you there since you showed up on the screen until you received your diploma. We got some screenshots to keep for memory. Grandma was also delighted to see you on the screen too. She really wants to talk to you, hug you and say congratulations to you.

You are alone on your road, keep doing the best you can to keep yourself strong and positive. We are so proud of you and believe you are proud of yourself too. We wish you the best and hope you can open a channel to let us talk to each other. Yesterday, I received a call from you, I was shocked and even didn’t know what to say, but you hung up it quickly. Not sure what you like to say, or I messed it up. Truly wish you can call me again, but please stay it longer and say something.

Since I don’t hear anything from you, all I can do is sent my prayers to you and with those songs which presenting our feeling and you may have the same feeling too. We wish you the best and hope you come home soon.

Positive thinking gives us positive energy that generates positive results.

You know this book and wish you will give it a chance to listen or read it again to help you on your journey. 

While I was thinking about how to share this book with you, you called me. Even you didn't say anything and hung up, but you opened a channel, no matter what reason.

If you still don't like Dr. Peale's voice, here is the alternative for you. Or you can do a search to find more similar topics for your listening. Wish you give it a chance to let it go into your heart.

How are you doing today? I am on a two-day business trip to this place we were together. Wish you were here with me now.

Please open a channel to let us communicate. Let's start from one character to one word, to one phase, to one sentence, then to a conversation. I like to hear from you and purely from you, not my words, but only yours.

  

How are you today? Don’t know where you are? Where did you stay last night? Do you have enough clothes? How do you feel now? We really like to hear from you, because we are so missing you.

We are so worried about you, such as the above concerns, because we are care of you so much. I think that is the reason to make you feel that we are binding you and ended up pushing you out. On the other hand, we are also proud of you that you walk on your own journey independently that has so many challenges and uncertainties that you have to deal with daily. In any case, if you need any support or a place to stay, please don’t hesitate to let us know or just simply come home. You will see our changes. As I mentioned to you, we all are working with therapists to understand our mistakes and committed to change ourselves. They are really helped and we see the changes. Even we are not there yet, but we know that we are moving on the right path step by step. Please pray for us to our Lord, God, to guide us.

Since we cannot hear anything from you, what we can do is just sending you our message or prayer and wish you can receive them. Please do let us know anything from you.
   May it be an evening star shines down upon you
   May it be when darkness falls, your heart will be true
   You walk a lonely road. Oh! How far you are from home
   Mornië utúlië, believe and you will find your way
   Mornië alantië, a promise lives within you now
   May it be the shadow's call will fly away
   May it be your journey on to light the day
   When the night is overcome, you may rise to find the sun
   Mornië utúlië, believe and you will find your way
   Mornië alantië, a promise lives within you now

May God bless you and the Holy Spirit be with you always.
Be strong, be positive and be holy.
Please let us hear from you ...

Homeward Bound

In the quiet misty morning
When the moon has gone to bed,
When the sparrows stop their singing
And the sky is clear and red,
When the summer's ceased its gleaming
When the corn is past its prime,
When adventure's lost its meaning
I'll be homeward bound in time

Bind me not to the pasture
Chain me not to the plow
Set me free to find my calling
And I'll return to you somehow

If you find it's me you're missing
If you're hoping I'll return,
To your thoughts I'll soon be listening,
And in the road I'll stop and turn
Then the wind will set me racing
As my journey nears its end
And the path I'll be retracing
When I'm homeward bound again

Bind me not to the pasture
Chain me not to the plow
Set me free to find my calling
And I'll return to you somehow

In the quiet misty morning
When the moon has gone to bed,
When the sparrows stop their singing
I'll be homeward bound again.

Bind me not to the pasture
Chain me not to the plow
Set me free to find my calling
And I'll return to you somehow

Today is mommy's first day going back to work after almost 13 years. As we said that we commit to make changes and improve ourselves to make sure those lessons are worthy in our life. However, we are also facing a lot of challenges as you are experiencing now. We will continue to do our best to move forward step by step. Please pray for her and us. May God bless you and us and the Holy Spirits guide us. Be strong, be positive, be holy and be happy.

Today is Mother’s day and the 40th day you left us. It is very hard for you and for Mommy and Nai-Nai. Yesterday we had dinner together, but she didn’t see you and felt regret. I just told Nai-Nai that you were not home today. She kept asking how are you doing? Which school are you going to? How are those pimples on your head and is getting better now? She wanted to hug you.

As you know that Jesus went to the wilderness and came back after 40 days . . . Will you too? I think I am stupid enough to ask this question, but just want to tell you that we are so missing you. We really wish you can come back soon. May God bless you and Holy Spirit be with you always.

This is the 6th week you are away from home. Don’t know how do you feel right now, but I feel that it is not easy for you and for us. If there is a time machine, I definitely will go back to fix our issues and won’t let this situation happen. Yes, as you said, it is too late, but it is also up to you if you want to fix it or not.

Through this, we see what is hopeless and helpless. I have called that police who talked to you and us frequently, but he never picks up the calls or replies, even he promised that he is willing to help. There is no connection that can help us to know where are you, how are you doing, or just simply did you get our emails or messages? With this no feedback or acknowledgment, I have created a blog, DearAaron.com, to keep our prayers and some messages there, in case you don’t read email or text messages. 

As I told you that we started working with therapists to fix ourselves and our family issues. We committed to change. This therapist is very helpful, absolutely confidential and everything is private without sharing with anyone including parents or police. Please let me know, if you like to have one, I can provide you a list you can contact them by yourself. Hopefully, you can grow together through this independent experience.

I think you still remember that Jesus went to the wilderness to experience the challenge of temptations, after 40 days and 40 nights, he returned. Please see Why Jesus was 40 Days in the Wilderness for details. He was not affected by any those temptations and returned after 40 days. I believe through your current experiences, you have explored so many things and so many temptations, wish you have your own righteous judgment to keep you not into temptations and deliver you from every evil. This Sunday is the 40th day that you left home and also the Mother’s day. Jesus did it and came back, will you too?

Please take care of yourself. Do not reject those people who are really trying to help you from their heart. Do not get into any temptations and reject any evil who is purposely helping you. May God bless you and the Holy Spirit be with you and guide you through all of these.

May it be an evening star shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls, your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road. Oh! How far you are from home
Mornië utúlië (Quenya: Darkness has come), believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (Quenya: Darkness has fallen), a promise lives within you now
May it be the shadow's call will fly away
May it be your journey on to light the day
When the night is overcome, you may rise to find the sun
Mornië utúlië (Quenya: Darkness has come), believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (Quenya: Darkness has fallen), a promise lives within you now

Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine

I am strength for all the despairing
Healing for the ones who dwell in shame
All the blind will see, the lame will all run free
And all will know My name

Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine

I am the Word that leads all to freedom
I am the peace the world cannot give
I will call your name, embracing all your pain
Stand up, now, walk, and live

Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine

Serenity Prayer

God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time,
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardship as a pathway to peace;
taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
trusting that You will make all things right if I surrender to Your will;
so that I may be reasonable happy in this life
and supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

May It Be

May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home

Mornië utúlië (Quenya: Darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (Quenya: Darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now

May it be the shadow's call
Will fly away
May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun

Mornië utúlië (Quenya: Darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (Quenya: Darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now

How much you loved me . . .

While you are not with me and I am so missing you. I know it is useless at this point, but I recalled each image that I remembered when we were fighting. Now I can see it clearly how much you loved me, but I was totally messed up at that moment. You know you can easily knock me down. However, you just hold your fists tight and kept back off to prevent hurting me accidentally. Unfortunately, I couldn’t see the inside of your heart at the point while we were fighting with each other. Now those images of your face are floating in my eyes and in my heart. I can see through your face to your heart and understand how much you loved me. I know it was too late and you may not value anything of what I said here. But I really want to tell you that I see your real heart and appreciate your love, and wish you can open the door to let us repent.

The more I watch this painting, the more ideas I got from it and deeper understanding I can see.

Now, I understand why it is not upside-down.





The more listening of your songs, the more tears coming to wet my heart. I thought I have tried my best to be a good Catholic, go to church every day, join Bible study with my friends, requested you go to church with me on Sunday, use biblical teaching to regulate you, and apply God’s words to scold you. My intention was trying to stimulate and raise your willpower for yourself, but I actually created massive pressure on you and made you could not breathe. You never complain but just followed because you don’t want to hurt my heart. Ironically, all of my executions gave you the worst experiences of a Catholic, made you don’t want to see me and hear me again, and eventually pushed you out. This is not what I want, and I believe this is also not what you wish to initially. It is too late to say this, useless and worthless, but I still want you to open the door to let me say sorry and listen to my confession. If God can do it, will you too?

We are missing you very much. Please take care.

Long long time ago

We both have each other 

Long long time ago 

You left me and flew up high around the world 

The outside world is wonderful 

The outside world is helpless 

When you feel the outside world is helpless 

I’m still here patiently waiting for your return 

Each day when the sun is setting down 

I’m always here looking for you 

Even through there is rain in the sky 

I’m still waiting for the day you return

Coming Home

   : : :      : : :

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain from yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming, home

"Ain't No Stopping Us Now", I love that song
Whenever it comes on it makes me feel strong
I thought I told y'all that we won't stop
'Til we back cruising through Harlem, these old blocks
Is what made me, saved me, drove me crazy
Drove me away than embraced me
Forgave me for all of my shortcomings
Welcome to my homecoming
Yeah it's been a long time coming
Lot of fights, lot of scars, lot of bottles
Lot of cars, lot of ups, lot of downs
Made it back, lost my dog (I miss you big)
And here I stand, a better man! (a better man)
Thank you Lord (Thank you Lord)
Thank you all!

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain from yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the world that I'm coming, home

Our Father, who art in heaven,

hallowed be thy name; thy kingdom come;
thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread;
and forgive us our trespasses
as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

The stone rejected by the builders has become the cornerstone.

The stone which the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone.
By the LORD has this been done;
it is wonderful in our eyes.
This is the day the LORD has made;
let us be glad and rejoice in it.

When you are alone, wish Xiao Huang can be your companion.

Lights will guide you home

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

[R] 

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try, then you'll never know
Just what you're worth

[R]

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down your face
I promise you that I'll learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

[R]

Do you remember this . . . ?

Do you still remember why you built this one?




You built it just for your brother to kick because we didn't want him to kick those ones made by others.

Easter Sunday (4/21)

Today is Easter. When everyone rejoices in this wonderful reality of the resurrection that Jesus returned after 40 days, but we still didn’t hear anything from you. We even don’t know where are you now. Please let us know . . . my dear.

Just want to let you know that the home is always open for you. Your bed seems still warm, your plate on the dining table is still full, Alf is still waiting for you to play and your brother is still waiting for you to talk about cars, especially this one for us to discover the world.

After you left us, Alf seemed so listless every day.

Finally, we gave him a shower today, just like we did together before. He looked prettier.

However, his wound on his front leg, which seems still bothering him. I have brought him to see the vet and gave him medication, but the wound doesn't seem to get any better. Can you pray for him?

Do you still remember this SB @TC (李壽全, Lee Shou-Chuan), who is the original singer of Zhang San De Ge (張三的歌), and you have a picture with him.

If you understand his lyrics, that is what I really like to do with you.

[1]

我要带你到处去飞翔  Let me take you somewhere far away
走遍世界各地去观赏  All around the world we’ll spend our days
没有烦恼没有那悲伤  There will be no sadness or heartache
自由自在身心多开朗  Freedom is ours and we’ll be okay

[2]
忘掉痛苦忘掉你悲伤  Throw away your sorrows and your grief
我们一起启程去流浪  We can journey if you come with me
虽然没有华厦美衣裳  Though we don’t have wealth or jewelry
但是心里充满着希望  We’ve got hope that no one else can see

[3]
我们要飞到那遥远地方
Oh let us fly, to a far away place
看一看这世界并非那么凄凉
Let us find such a land, neither cold, dark nor gray
我们要飞到那遥远地方
Oh let us fly, to that far away place
望一望 这世界还是一片的光亮
I believe, that this world still does shine with faithful grace
[1] [2] [3] [1] [2] [3] [3]

Do you know what I really like to do? I like to quit my job and travel with you, just you and me and Alf with a little RV after you get your driver license. No plan, just stop and go based on our moods to see this world. However, I never had a chance to share this idea with you. 

Can we do it together this summer? For some reasons, I like to travel with you alone, because you will take care of me, and I really like that feeling, but you may not notice it.

Do you have a place to stay? Do you have a bed to sleep on? Do you have food to eat?

Be strong, be positive, and be holy.

We miss you. Home is meaningless without you . . .